Love without Fear?

One more day, one more month, soon it will be a year since you drove away in the open car, it front of 14 Verona.

I remember your hand waiving at me. I don't know what I really felt then, I think I was trying to stay hollow. I managed to stay that way for quite some time, that's how I chose to live in order to survive the abandonment.

I have had abandonment issues my whole life, and I never really understood where they were from. I've stopped trying and instead I simply accept that i will have to live with them.

In the first months I simply refused to feel. I have not cried once, until yesterday that is. I wasn't crying because I miss you, or want you back. I was crying because you took something precious away from me. You finished what someone else, someone better than you though, started years ago. How could I trust again, love without fear?